Klonopin Withdrawal Blog
Klonopin Side Effects of June 2, 2011
Klonopin Short Term Memory Loss - June 10, 2011
Yesterday was a great day. I had a big meeting and I took four mgs of Klonopin around 6:10 am since my meeting was at 7:45. Of course, this is 3 mgs more than what I take in the morning before I go to work. However, if I know I have a meeting that I have to talk in, then I take more Klonopin than usual.
I also drank teas’ tea on the way to work (this is pure green tea in a bottle and helps me with my mind fog symptoms). I felt very relaxed by the time I got to work and was very outgoing. I then went into the meeting and talked like I’ve been confident my whole life (for those who don’t read my blog often, I have social anxiety). I also prayed to God to help me – and He gave me the tools for this particular meeting. Yes, it was a good day.
I feel like that I am overcoming my fears in speaking in meetings. I still feel like I have a long way, but I’m getting there. It’s just going to take a while.
Last night, I was doing some work on my laptop and I noticed that someone from one of the social anxiety forums that I am a member of, sent me an e-mail. We are trying to establish a meet-up for people that have social anxiety. Now, I take Klonopin for social anxiety, but I believe that I need to face my fears of talking to people before I totally get off of Klonopin for good. I am finding that I can be perfectly fine at work, and I might be taking less Klonopin than usual – but then if something pops up that I find to be rough and it produces anxiety within me, that is when my Klonopin withdrawal symptoms hit me (usually mind fog).
I was worried this morning (today is Saturday – and yes, I am at work today…but I work every other Saturday for twelve hours) that I was going back to taking 1 mg of Klonopin. I was thinking that my body would want more since the last two days I took a lot more than usual. However, I felt fine and nothing bothered me. I did have my normal OCD – but that was expected. Actually, about ten minutes ago, someone called about a specific situation in which she really didn’t need to call at all, and then I started asking her every question because I did not know why she was calling. After I hung up, the first thing that I thought was she was going to tell her boss that I was asking way too many questions – but then I purposely corrected my train of though and started thinking – “Well, if they have a problem with me asking to many questions, I’ll just tell my manager I had no idea why she was calling”. So I am trying to correct my “OCD” though processes as well.
I will be getting off at 7:30 tonight, but at 6:00 pm, we will be doing a specific task that has always made me anxious. I don’t know why, maybe I am thinking that I scared that I might screw it up. However, the last few weeks, I feel that I have made progress and really no longer fear it at all. I know what I’m doing and if I make a mistake, I can correct the problem (hopefully). We do this task every other Saturday at 6:00 and I usually take about 2 mg of Klonopin to have me calm down. However, tonight, since my anxiety level of this task has been a lot less, I think I might be taking only 1 mg – which is the norm for me on this task anymore. So the bottom line for me is this – the less anxiety, the less Klonopin I need to take.
I hate to say this – and I could be dead wrong, but if I didn’t have a job (and a small part-time business) and was on disability, tapering off of Klonopin would be very easy. But who knows, I’m just glad I do have a job, but it’s very rough to taper off when I have a lot of stressful things come up at work. I could though, visualize the different types of events that I view as fearful and make them into something I enjoy. Keep doing this and my anxiety levels will go down along with my Klonopin intake.
The next three days I will have off from work. I don’t think I will be taking any Klonopin at all. This is the norm though but if I do take any, it will be one mg, and that’s if my withdrawal symptoms get really crazy. However, when the Klonopin withdrawal symptoms get out of control, I usually exercise or do meditation, especially the latter.
I have a lot to do on my days off, but I will concentrate on drinking my new found green tea – “teas’ tea”, everyday. I will also be ordering “holy basil” off of puritan pride and see how that works. GABA is probably in my future, but I want to take things one at a time and evaluate them to see if they really work. For now though, Teas’ Tea Green tea is the leader in my book and I will continue to experiment with this type of drink.
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